Thursday, November 8, 2012

14 Weeks Pregnant


Today, we are 14 weeks 1 day pregnant!

Does it seem like it's kind of flying to anyone else?? It's crazy to think that when Christmas gets here, we'll be half way through already! It's even more crazy to think that it's been almost 3 months since we announced we were pregnant! UNREAL. 

Here's a 14 week shot.


You HAVE to love bathroom mirror pics, right? haha! :) It's really starting to protrude out there. I love seeing that bump forming!


And that's our traditional weekly picture! 

What does it say this week?

Still sick every single morning. Not sure if you the memo, kiddo, but 2nd trimester means no more sickness LOL

Only 5 days until we know what YOU are (4 DAYS TODAY!!)

We have been debating your name again this week. It's a huge deal... you'll have it forever. We just want it to fit! 

You're really starting to pop out there. I'm just anxious to feel you kick now!

Had a craving for Japanese Steakhouse salad this week. Nothing like it!

I am battling nightmares with this pregnancy just like I did with Tayler. Weird things like plane crashes, etc.

Crazy what hormones do! LOL

And yes.. lets talk about hormones, shall we??

I've been plagued this week with disgusting pregnancy issues HAHA!!

So, first of all.. I had a HUGE boil on my head. Well, let me back up. At first, I didn't know it was a boil. It felt like a goose egg (like I'd hit my head extremely hard) but I didn't remember doing that. It hurt so bad I could hardly sleep at night. Ethan told me he was starting to get worried because of how bad it was hurting me and he thought I should make a doctor's appointment. Well, lo and behold.. it was a boil. I've never had one before so I didn't know what they looked like or how they felt. The good thing was that all I had to do was put warm compresses on it and let me tell you-- it cleared up after 2 days of doing that! I wanted to pop it so bad, but he said there's a risk of infection doing that and that is dangerous especially being pregnant, so warm compresses and neosporin it was! And it healed up so nicely! Apparently pregnant women are susceptible to them because their immune systems are low. I had no idea! But it's fixed now and I'm finally getting a good night's sleep again! :)

Another thing was, I went to the dentist yesterday and he told me I have 'pregnancy gingivitis.' He said MANY pregnant women get it. Your gums swell and bleed easily. You just need to go to routine cleanings and make sure you're brushing and flossing daily. So, CHECK on that! :) Had my routine cleaning yesterday and I ALWAYS brush my teeth at least 2-3x a day. Now, I just need to remind myself to floss! *smacks head* I hate doing that, haha!

Other than that whole mess of stuff, I'd say it's been a pretty good week! I am not as sick through the day time anymore which is nice, but still extremely sick every morning which I know has something to do with not eating all night. I battled it with Tayler too. I forget every night to bring snacks upstairs with me to eat before I get out of bed! I'm just in such a hurry to actually get to bed, I forget, haha!

Alright-- now for the questions!

How far along? 14 weeks
Total Weight Gain?  Probably 2-4lbs. 
Maternity Clothes? Nope, just a belly band!
Stretch Marks? As I said last time, I'm not really sure? I had some with Tayler, but I don't see any new ones. I lather my belly in cocoa butter in hopes it will help this time!
Sleep? It wasn't so great this week!
Best Moment of This Week:  We made it to the 2nd trimester :)
Miss Anything? No heartburn and not throwing up every morning, haha!
Movement? Nothing I can feel! I'm sure they are boogeying down there though ;)
Food Cravings? Japanese steakhouse salads and dressing!
Anything Make You Queasy/Sick? Dirty dishes. Poopy diapers. The smell of pee-pee.
Gender: 4 days and we will know! How exciting is that!!
Labor Signs? No way! Thank God!
Symptoms: Nausea. Peeing a lot. Sore boobies!
Belly Button In or Out? She's an innie!
Weddings Rings On Or Off? On for now! :)
Happy or Moody this week? A little bit of both, haha!
Looking Forward To: My brother's wedding Saturday and finding out the sex Sunday!!!! :) 
 
Happy 14 Weeks everyone! On to 15 weeks!! :)


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Friday, November 2, 2012

Happy Halloween!

I thought I'd share a few HALLOWEEN pictures of my 19 month old for all of you :) She turned 19 months old on Halloween.. can't believe how big she is getting!


There's our not-so-happy Foofa, haha :)  We woke her up to head out and she wasn't a happy camper to say the least, but oh well, she still looks adorable! LOL :) 

It was SOOOOO cold this year for Halloween. Last year wasn't too bad. I remember being in a hoodie and jeans.. or how about I just share a picture of Tayler and me last year for Halloween? She was 7 months old.


She looks so tiny. I can't believe how quick life goes.


And now she's a big 19 month old!

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Hope you all had a Happy Halloween!! We sure did :) Hard to believe next year on Halloween we will have a 6 month old an a 32 month old :) 

Cheers! 

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Wednesday, October 31, 2012

13 Weeks-- SECOND TRIMESTER!! :)


We are 13 weeks pregnant today!! :) Finally in the 2nd trimester. Does it seem like this is flying by to anyone else? I can't believe it. Ethan and I were talking last night about how it's been 9 weeks since we announced we were pregnant... doesn't even seem like it.
 
I feel so blessed that God saw it fit to give us a new life. He has surely given us more than we could have ever asked for. We have a gorgeous, smart, happy 19 month old (she's 19 months old today actually!) and she's healthy... and I pray the same thing for this baby. I know what an honor it is to be able to be pregnant.. and give birth.. and have this precious gift. I just plead His blood over our lives every single day. That he keeps us healthy and growing on schedule. I trust Him.
 
So how's 13 weeks working out for us?
 
Good! Still nauseous, but I don't know why I'm surprised. Lol I was sick with Tayler almost the entire time, haha! I'm not sure why I thought it would be different with this one. They're both boogers ;) But I guess that's a good sign to me that the baby is still healthy. It's a comforting (yet overwhelming) feeling... especially when you can't feel the baby moving :) I guess you've got to take the good with the bad.. and I'm perfectly okay with that!
 
I craved a steak this week. That's really weird because I don't typically enjoy just a plain steak, you know? But I kept wanting one and wanting one... so Ethan ended up surprising me at stopping at the corner market on his way home from work and picking one up for me :) He made me a ribeye steak with mushrooms and onions, green beans, potatoes, and bread and butter. It was delicious! It makes me want another one... with A1 sauce. Although, I'm sure baby won't be happy about that later, haha! I was up half the night with heartburn thanks to pasta salad and italian dressing I had at like 9:15PM. *sigh* Bad decision on my part, haha! :)
 
Alright, now for some pictures!
 

 
Added a little bit of Halloween touch this week :)
 
and for a close up--
 


 
I'm still as confused as ever on the sex, so lets not discuss that, haha! :) Like I said, I have felt like it's a Sawyer (girl) from the start, but everyone keeps saying it's a boy, so it really confuses me. But I'm holding on to all of Tayler's old clothes just in case. Honestly, it would be easier to have a little girl, but I'd be thrilled with a boy too ;)
 
And now for some questions!
 
How far along? 13 weeks
Total Weight Gain?  We had a doctor's appointment Friday and it said I gained 2lbs in 4 weeks. He said normally they allow 1lb a week, so I did great for my 2nd appointment! That made me happy because I feel chubby haha!
Maternity Clothes? Nah! Just a belly band. They say that happens quick with your 2nd one :)
Stretch Marks? As I said last time, I'm not really sure? I had some with Tayler, but I don't see any new ones. I lather my belly in cocoa butter in hopes it will help this time!
Sleep? Alright except for the nights I struggle with heartburn :)
Best Moment of This Week: We got to hear the heartbeat Friday. Such a beautiful sound :)
Miss Anything? Not getting heartburn every time I eat something with a bit of a kick LOL
Movement? Nothing I can feel! I'm sure they are boogeying down there though ;)
Food Cravings? Steak!
Anything Make You Queasy/Sick? So much. Certain foods, poopy diapers, trash...
Gender: 11 days and we will know!
Labor Signs? No way!
Symptoms: Nausea. Peeing constantly. Fatigue. Sore breasts!
Belly Button In or Out? She's an innie!
Weddings Rings On Or Off? On for now! :)
Happy or Moody this week? Emotional (I'll admit, I've been watching Christmas movies and they always get to me) but happy!! :)
Looking Forward To: Finding out the sex next Sunday!! :)
 
Alright, now time to get ready for our evening! Our 19 month old is going trick or treating tonight :) I'll try to remember to post pictures later. Wait til you see how cute she looks in her costume!! :)
 
Happy 13 weeks.. on to 14!

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Thursday, October 25, 2012

12 Weeks!! :)


12 WEEKS, 12 WEEKS, 12 WEEKS!! 

Now, I'm not sure if you will consider this second trimester or not. Like 3 of my Apps say I'm in the 2nd trimester and 2 others say I'm still in the first trimester. Either way, we are at 12 weeks pregnant!!


We decided to do a FALL theme with this picture! :) If you can't read everything, have no fear. I'll type it right here :)

12 Weeks [10.24.2012-10.30.2012]

Craved Donato's Italian Dressing this week. Yum! 

Still nauseous. Thought this had passed, but I was wrong LOL

No maternity clothes, but still loving the belly band.

You're popping out there this week.

17 days until we know WHO you are. Are you my little Parker or my little Sawyer?

There you have it!

But I have to tell you. I craved Donato's Italian Dressing alllll up until last night. It was a mistake to get jalapenos, mild peppers, onions, and olives on the same salad. I know. Is that just giving you heartburn reading about it?? ME TOO. And it made me SO sick. I don't think I'll ever touch the stuff again. UGH. haha! It was so good for awhile :)

Thought I'd post another picture real quick too!


It was 80 degrees today here in Ohio, so I wore my sun dress :) Cute wittle bump, right? I'm still in shock how quickly I showed with this one. Tayler... good Lord.. it was awhile, haha! But this bump is apparent :)

Lets see. What to say about week 12?

Still tired, but finding motivation to get things done which is good! 

Still lathering my body in cocoa butter. Hoping it REALLY helps this time around.

I'm getting extremely anxious to know the sex of the baby. I picked out a few 'nursery ideas' that I thought I'd share really quick too!


We love the above for a boy. I love the deep blues and greens and the brown. I think it will be perfect for Parker's room :)


And we love the above for a little girl (except for we'd do pink accents as opposed to blue.) I love the tree theme for either room. I think our little Sawyer would just love this ;)

Now--- I'm just ready to know!! :) 2 weeks from Sunday! 2 weeks from Sunday! Too exciting :) 2 more blog posts and we will finally know! I cannot wait :)

Our baby is the size of a peach this week. About 3 inches and I think it said like .7 ounces. He/she is a growing, that's for sure :) 

Okay. Now for the weekly questions. Are you getting tired of these?? haha! There should be some variety coming with time. Trust me!

How far along?  12 weeks, 1 day
Total Weight Gain?  I'm going to say maybe 2-3 pounds? I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow so I will know more!
Maternity Clothes? Nah! Just a belly band. They say that happens quick with your 2nd one :)
Stretch Marks? As I said last time, I'm not really sure? I had some with Tayler, but I don't see any new ones. I lather my belly in cocoa butter in hopes it will help this time!
Sleep?  Pretty decent!
Best Moment of This Week: Seeing 12 weeks and we get to hear the baby's heartbeat tomorrow... FINALLY! :) We've seen it 2x on the ultrasound, but I cannot wait to actually hear it!
Miss Anything? Hmm! Not really :) Still really enjoying the fact that I'm actually pregnant! :)
Movement?  Nothing I can feel! I'm sure they are boogeying down there though ;)
Food Cravings? Wendys. I crave Wendys 24/7. It's ridiculous. 
Anything Make You Queasy/Sick? The smell of pee-pee in the morning. Odd huh?
Gender:  17 days we will know!
Labor Signs? No way!
Symptoms: Nausea. Peeing constantly. Fatigue. Sore breasts!
Belly Button In or Out? She's an innie!
Weddings Rings On Or Off? On for now! :)
Happy or Moody this week? Somewhat moody, but happy!
Looking Forward To: Hearing the heartbeat tomorrow at our 12-week appointment!

Speaking of which.

It was originally scheduled for Wednesday, but they cancelled due to my doctor having to run to an emergency delivery. I'm glad they did reschedule though because we found a bite on Tayler! :( It had 2 red lines stemming from it, so we called her doctor and he said he wanted to see her immediately. He said he didn't think it was infected, but we got medicine for it and he told us to give her some tylenol if it seemed to be bothering her. I was relieved it wasn't anything serious! But today she woke up in a much happier mood and seems to be feeling much better from it! Thank God!!! :) So now we have our baby doctor appointment for tomorrow! YAY :)

Happy 12 Weeks!! On to 13!


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Monday, October 22, 2012

11 Weeks

11 Weeks! Well, I'm a little late, but I am technically still 11 weeks pregnant, haha! Hard to believe huh?? I feel like we just announced the big news and we're getting ready to say, 'Happy 3 Months' to Bitty Bay #2!


As of right now, we only have 198 days til our due date! :) We're in the 100's.... holla, haha! 

It's been a pretty easy going week. Nausea comes and goes still. I thought I was feeling better.. turns out the little booger was just tricking me ;) I started out this pregnancy hating lettuce.... this week, I want salads. Donato's salads to be more specific. Their dressing is to DIE for. Okay, I probably really wouldn't die for it, but you know what I mean ;)

I thought I'd share a bare belly shot this week too!


That was taken earlier this morning. Starting to pop out there, huh?? So exciting! I LOVE LOVE LOVE seeing a growing belly. Especially since we haven't had an appointment to HEAR the heartbeat yet! I can't wait! :) We've seen it, but yet to hear that pitter-patter. I'm super excited :) We get to hear it Wednesday at our appointment! YAY :) 

My iron pills are agreeing with my body a little more. You all remember me asking that question a few weeks ago... well, I powered through it and kept taking them and I'm actually handling it a lot better. Those first few weeks were rough though! Almost through my first bottle of Prenatal vitamins. Pretty cool :)

We decided on the names this week too... FINALLY. We've been discussing them since we found out and we couldn't agree on anything haha! We went back and forth on so many, but we decided to stick with the ones we originally fell in love with. I got some good advice that told me not to overthink it.. which I thought I was! 

We decided on:

Parker Keith for a boy. (Ethan loves the name 'Keith' and it's my Dad's middle name. It fits perfectly!)
Sawyer Kellylynn for a girl. (Kelly is my mom's middle name, Lynn is Ethan's moms. We combined them instead of hyphenating. Just our preference! :)) 

So there you have it! We'll know November 11th which one we're going to start buying for ;) 19 days! WHOOHOOO! Seems so close, but so far away, haha! 

Also, on a side note. My little love bug Tayler had her 18 month check up last week. The little booger is 26lbs 1oz and 34" tall. She's really starting to thin out. He said she's ornery... we knew this, haha! But he said she's healthy and seems very happy! :) We love her more than she could ever possibly know, but I sure hope that's why she is so happy-- because she feels it from us! :)We also decided on her 2nd birthday theme. It's going to be LITTLE EINSTEINS. That's her 2nd favorite to 'Yo Gabba Gabba' and since we did 'Yo Gabba Gabba' for her 1st birthday, we thought we'd do Little Einsteins for her 2nd :) I know, it's a little early considering her birthday isn't until the end of March, but this Momma will be almost 36 weeks pregnant when she turns '1' and needless to say, probably huge, so I'm getting as much stuff done now as I can! :) One step ahead. 

Now, I thought I'd answer some questions to kind of fill you in on this week:

How far along? 11 weeks 5 days.
Total Weight Gain? As far as I can tell using our scale, NONE. We'll see at the doctor's office. I swear their scale adds 10 pounds to you, haha!
Maternity Clothes? Nah! Just a belly band. They say that happens quick with your 2nd one :)
Stretch Marks? As I said last time, I'm not really sure? I had some with Tayler, but I don't see any new ones. I lather my belly in cocoa butter in hopes it will help this time!
Sleep? Good this week so far! :)  Just having nightmares. I had them with Tayler too. Not like monster, evil dreams. Just scary. Ethan cheating on me, etc.
Best Moment of This Week: Seeing 11 weeks... almost out of our first trimester :)
Miss Anything? Hmm! Not really :) Still really enjoying the fact that I'm actually pregnant! :)
Movement?  Nothing I can feel! I'm sure they are boogeying down there though ;)
Food Cravings? Salads from Donatos!
Anything Make You Queasy/Sick? The smell of pee. Our kitchen for some reason makes me nauseous. It's really weird. 
Gender: We don't know yet! 19 days!
Labor Signs? No way!
Symptoms: Nausea. Peeing constantly. Fatigue. Sore breasts!
Belly Button In or Out? She's an innie!
Weddings Rings On Or Off? On for now! :)
Happy or Moody this week? VERY happy! It's been a wonderful week :)
Looking Forward To: Hearing the heartbeat in 2 days at our 12-week appointment!

Happy 11 weeks.. on to 12!



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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Happy 10 Weeks!


10 Weeks pregnant today! :)
[10/10/2012-10/16/2012]

I love the way the picture looks. I think I'm going to start taking them there from now on! :) The pumpkin is the PERFECT accent-- lets you know it's FALL!! :)

So, what does the picture say?

Wearing regular pants... with a belly band of course ;)

Still nauseous. Thank God for medicine. This baby lets me know when I haven't taken it! 

Toast with butter is a breakfast MUST. I get super sick in the AM and it's the only thing that calms my tummy!

Addicted to subs, cranberry juice, and Raisin Bran cereal.

33 days until we know what YOU are!

Iron pills are not my friend. I'll discuss that in a second.

Feeling great besides being nauseous part of the time.

Little to no motivation, but we push through it because we need a clean house, clean dishes, and clean clothes!

So, about the iron pills.

I didn't have to take those with Tayler, so I'm curious-- all you Mommas out there that have taken them before, have they messed up your digestive system? I've had theeee WORST stomach aches for like a week.. hard to use the potty... just feel downright miserable. I take two pills a day and I just feel like they are really screwing with my digestive system. Has this happened with any of you? I want to call and talk to them about it, but I feel like he's going to keep telling me to take them because my iron is low. I have been trying to counteract with eating Raisin Bran and other high fiber foods. Did that help anyone else? Just curious. I've never had this struggle before.

Craved some meatball subs this week! Good stuff. It was hilarious. I went to Subway because I want meatballs on their Italian Herbs and Cheese bread. I get all the way there... tell the lady I've had a craving for one of their subs and she says, 'What kind?' and I said 'MEATBALL!' and she says, 'We're out. They had a recall on the sauce.' SERIOUSLY? What are the odds of that happening?? haha! I told her I could not eat there. I get to the point where nothing else sounds good but what I'm desiring, haha! So... Crenos it was ;) It was delicious! Thankful for that :)

We have Tayler's 18 month check-up today, so I'll post some stuff about that in a little bit! I feel like I rarely write about her anymore and I don't like that! :( So, I'll definitely be updating later on about my little munchkin! She's going to be such a good big sister.

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant for a 'boy.' Inside, I don't really care if it's a boy or girl. Honestly, a girl would be easier because I saved EVERYTHING of Tayler's, haha, but I would LOVE to have a little boy and have that mother/son bonding like Tayler and I have. I know it will be different and I'm looking forward to it :) I guess in my heart, I feel like it's a little girl, but that dream felt so real--- I kind of feel like it's a boy now, haha! I'm confused. I don't know if I believe in 'mother's intuition' haha! Although, with Tayler, I thought she was a girl at first... had a dream she was a boy.. changed my mind.. and she was a girl! So, maybe I should just stick with what my instinct was as soon as I saw a positive test ;) A girl!

Alright, now for those weekly questions!

How far along? 10 weeks
Total Weight Gain? None or maybe a pound? Last time I checked I was right around the weight I started with!
Maternity Clothes? Nah! Just a belly band. They say that happens quick with your 2nd one :)
Stretch Marks? As I said last time, I'm not really sure? I had some with Tayler, but I don't see any new ones. I lather my belly in cocoa butter in hopes it will help this time!
Sleep? Good this week so far! :) 
Best Moment of This Week: Seeing double digits! We're only 14 days away from the 2nd trimester :) 
Miss Anything? When I saw Ethan crack open a beer to watch the football game Sunday, I had a twinge of 'Ooo, ice cold beer' but just a twinge! I LOVE being pregnant and I'm enjoying every single bit of it :)
Movement?  Nothing I can feel! I'm sure they are boogeying down there though ;)
Food Cravings? Meatball subs!
Anything Make You Queasy/Sick? Poopy diapers! LOL
Gender: We don't know yet! 
Labor Signs? No way!
Symptoms: Nausea. Peeing constantly. Fatigue. Sore breasts!
Belly Button In or Out? She's an innie!
Weddings Rings On Or Off? On for now! :)
Happy or Moody this week? VERY happy! It's been a wonderful week :)
Looking Forward To: Hearing the heartbeat in a few weeks at our 12 week appointment! :)

Happy 10 Weeks! :) That means only 27-30 weeks until we meet our new bundle of joy! We cannot wait :) 



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Sunday, October 7, 2012

9 Weeks with Bitty Bay!


I know, I'm a little late! I'm just getting on the computer for some 'personal use' as opposed to 'business use' hehe! :) 

I am currently 9 weeks, 4 days pregnant today! Crazy huh? I feel like time is going fast, but then at the same time, I feel like it's dragging as well. Maybe I'm just really excited to get out of the first trimester? I start my 12th week in 17 days. Not much longer!

I've been keeping track of my countdowns as of right now :)

17 days until I'm headed in to the 2nd trimester
35 days until we find out what we are having

Crazy to think it's THAT close!

Here's my 9 weeks belly shot.


My husband wasn't home, so I took this one with my cell phone which is why it's a bit blurry, haha! But oh well-- it's the memories right? :)

I don't feel like I'm looking as 'bloated' now. Finally. 

Also, I got a refill on my nausea medicine. It is the only thing allowing me to eat and hold down foods this time around and it is such a miracle worker. I definitely feel it if I forget to take one! 

I've been trying really hard to eat healthy. I'm trying to make a conscious effort. This week, I ate a lot of oatmeal, whole wheat toast, and Subway! Hey-- when I'm craving something NOT at home, I try and do my best to eat something partially healthy as opposed to completely not healthy, haha! :) I've been hooked on the Sweet Onion Chicken Teryaki subs. Mmmm! Just talking about it makes me want another one ;)

And now for the weekly questions:

How far along? 9 weeks, 4 days.
Total Weight Gain? I weighed myself at home yesterday and it appears I've lost 2 pounds since the doctor's office. 
Maternity Clothes? Nah! Just a belly band. They say that happens quick with your 2nd one :)
Stretch Marks? As I said last time, I'm not really sure? I had some with Tayler, but I don't see any new ones. I lather my belly in cocoa butter in hopes it will help this time!
Sleep? I'm always tired and sleeping good right now! Of course, I don't have a huge belly or anything, so sleep isn't too uncomfortable right now. It was a little rough this week because we all had terrible colds and Tayler ended up in bed with us a few times, but we made it through with some Vicks and a vaporizer!
Best Moment of This Week: Seeing a growing belly. I think I said that last week, but it's a true story. Just lets me know.. when I can't feel the baby... that he/she is still growing!
Miss Anything? Not really! I'm not  that far in to it probably, haha! :)
Movement?  Nothing I can feel! I'm sure they are boogeying down there though ;)
Food Cravings? Subway Sweet Onion Chicken Teryaki Sub and Green Beans with lots of garlic and pepper! 
Anything Make You Queasy/Sick? Certain smells. Like pee.. for some reason.. it just makes me nauseous. Talking about certain things that make me sick. Anything can trigger my nausea in all honesty, haha!
Gender: We don't know yet! 
Labor Signs? No way!
Symptoms: Nausea when I'm not taking my medicine. Peeing constantly through the night.. and EXTREMELY sore boobies! Sorry for the TMI, but youch! 
Belly Button In or Out? She's an innie!
Weddings Rings On Or Off? On for now! :)
Happy or Moody this week? VERY happy! It's been a wonderful week :)
Looking Forward To: Hearing the heartbeat in a few weeks at our 12 week appointment! :)

It's been a wonderful week! I'll be back sometime around Wednesday for our 10 week update, hehe! Finally in the double digits, right? :)

Happy 9 weeks!

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August 13th Journal Prompt: Anger.

 The journal prompt of the day is: How do you deal with your anger? I bottle a lot of my emotions up inside. If I feel anger- it may show on...