Project 365x3: Day 11 (07.29.2019)

I'm going to be raw and honest with all of you here. And it is a TMI, so please, if you don't enjoy reading kind of gross details or you're eating right now, look away!

Our oldest daughter has non-verbal Autism (as most of you probably know) and sometimes things are less than pleasant. She didn't sleep at all Saturday night, so I was beyond exhausted by Sunday evening. I decided to sleep in the living room because Tayler had zero intentions of going to sleep and my husband had to get up early for work, so I stayed out there to keep an eye on her.. or at least that was my intentions. I must have fallen asleep sometime after 1:30 and woke up around 3:00 to hear Tayler being noisy. I said from the living room "Tayler, sleep" and she wandered out to the living room and laid on the couch. I laid there forever waiting for her to doze off and some time before 4, she did. My husband woke me up at 6:45 as he was getting ready for work and said, "Babe, it smells really bad in here." I woke up and the smell instantly hit me- feces. I slowly made my way to the girl's bedroom and what do you know- she had used the restroom and smeared it everywhere. And when I say everywhere, guys, I mean EVERYWHERE. All I could do was stand there and cry. I SHOULD have been a better Mom the night before and checked on her. I SHOULD have gotten up and looked at her, but she slept only about an hour Saturday night and I was completely beat. As I looked at her, she was covered in it- and slept that way. I felt horrible. Incompetent. So, the day was spent scrubbing everything, shampooing carpets, bathing her, cleaning clothes and a million blankets and stuffed animals. I felt broken. Discouraged. Ashamed.....

And still struggling with all of those emotions. All I could think was- will we be doing this when she's 50?? It is heart wrenching. Most of my day was spent talking to God and trying to heal how I felt inside...

I just had to share that with all of you. If you're struggling with the same situation right now, I'm here.

Thankfully, I knew I had the night ahead of me- The Bachelorette with friends. It was the perfect ending to a stressful, overwhelming day.

It was just what this soul needed!

If you watch The Bachelorette- are you team Tyler or Jed??

Cheers to Project 365!

Project 365x3: Day 4 [07.22.2019]

Monday, the kids had a lazy day and Momma got to clean, clean, clean. I feel like our house is always in complete disarray after the weekend. Anyone else feel that way? I had about 5 loads of laundry to do, one of the kiddos accidentally wet the bed (so I had blankets and sheets to wash), a bunch of dishes to do, lunches to pack, dinner to put in the crock pot... it was a busy day needless to say! I feel like every Monday is that way. So, I got to work as soon as we got up (6:45am might I add! Our children NEVER sleep in!! And it's July for crying out loud LOL) We also did some school work (trying to stay on target for next school year)... and then...

I had some friends over for THE BACHELORETTE:MEN TELL ALL! Anyone else obsessed with this show? Just me? Well, I should say, just my friends and me? I was so ready to hear from Luke P.

Here's my thoughts on his 'opinion' which he gave Hannah:

If you are a Christian, then you know the verse "For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God." And you also know that sin is sin in God's eyes... whether it's premarital sex, cursing, gluttony, greed, anger... and since we ALL sin in some way or another (we are humans, aren't we?) who are we to judge anyone for the sins they commit. Luke P. really overstepped his boundaries. If you have standards, okay- you have standards. But don't come on a television show like 'The Bachelorette' with those standards. You know the kind of things that take place on this TV show. It is about exploring relationships- in all areas, in all ways. If you want to explore a relationship in ONE particular way.... find a place that will ensure you are pursuing a relationship in that one particular way (catching my drift here?)

I consider myself a woman of faith. I love Jesus. We have a relationship, but I fall short..... a lot (and when I say a lot.. I mean A LOT)  I'll never judge another human being for their shortcomings- whatever that might be- because I know I'm probably at the bottom of the totem pole on the 'Christian list' but by gosh, I sure do love Him. I'm just a mess at times.

So, having said that, it was an awesome night with my girlies! We were all cuddled up on the couch soaking up the drama!

What are your thoughts?

Cheers to Project 365!