August 13th Journal Prompt: Anger.

 The journal prompt of the day is:

How do you deal with your anger?

I bottle a lot of my emotions up inside.

If I feel anger- it may show on my face, but you won't see or hear about it unless it is absolutely necessary.

I've watched anger destroy people. Turn them into someone they cannot even recognize. I've watched anger bring shame. Regret.

And I refuse to be that person.

You can cross me-

You can hurt me-

And 9 times out of 10, 

I won't say a word. I won't speak on it.

BUT.

I'll sit with that anger.

I'll stew in that anger.

And that anger will force me to learn what I DESERVE.

So, no-

I won't fight with you.

I won't argue with you.

It is what it is.

BUT.

I will say-

"Alyssa, you deserve better."

And that anger within me will remind me of that. 

I'm the quiet angry person. Every bit of it churns inside of me and let's me process all angles of the situation. Very rarely do I speak when I'm angry because I know the tongue is a fickle thing. 

It will speak horrible things if you allow it. 

So-

get angry.

But let that anger make a situation GREAT for you, not regrettable.

Let that anger remind you:

I don't deserve this. 

And chase the heck out of something better!!

Process the anger.

Breathe.

And make a change.

FOURTH OF JULY.

4th of July is only 2 weeks away which means we need to start making preparations for a fun-filled week in the Bay house!!

We usually start celebrating holidays EARLY! So, festivities will kick off June 29th here!

So, here's a holiday plan for us! You can JOIN us or develop your own!

Monday, June 29th-

Activity: 4th of July Scavenger Hunt
Food/Treat: Firecracker Floats

Tuesday, June 30th-

Activity: Paint Patriotic Rocks and hide them around town!
Food/Treat: Red, White, and Blue punch

Wednesday, July 1st-

Activity: Make a 4th of July craft together 
Food/Treat: Make patriotic cookie ice cream sandwiches

Thursday, July 2nd:

Activity: FIREWORKS!
Food/Treat: 4th of July milkshakes

Friday, July 3rd:

Activity: Eagle/Hand print craft
Food/Treat: Red/White/Blue Lemon ice!

Saturday, July 4th:

Activity: July 4th get-together
Food/Treat: Make food for our get-together.

We hope you'll join us for our fun-filled Independence week!

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Hey, y'all!

GUESS WHO'S BACK, BACK AGAIN!!

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Appreciate you more than ever!

[WEDNESDAY MORNING MOTIVATION]

A little Wednesday morning motivation.

“It isn’t our fault if life handed us a sh*tty hand, but it is our responsibility to take that sh*tty hand and do something amazing with it.”

I’ve wallowed in self pity for a long time.

It isn’t fair my daughter was diagnosed with autism.

It isn’t fair I for some reason struggle with a panic disorder.

Boo-hoo Alyssa.

Not a single person is coming to save you. Half of them don’t even care- and the other half are probably happy you have problems. Quit whining. Quit complaining. Victim mode doesn’t work and it sure as he*l doesn’t give you a better life!

Pull your big girl pants on and get to work on your life. Figure it out. Work hard. Quit looking at everyone else’s grass and work on your own.

So your daughter was diagnosed with autism and may struggle her entire life? Get your butt off the couch, work hard, and figure out how to give her the best life possible!

So you have a panic disorder and struggle to leave the house? You going to whine and complain like a little baby? Fight like hell for what you deserve and WHAT YOU WANT. Your happiness is your responsibility. And if you want something, you better chase it.

Today, let’s water our own grass and quit worrying about what the Joneses are doing. As Grant Cardone said- quit trying to keep up with the Joneses, they’re broke!!!!!! Quit playing the victim card and man up! You’re better than that.

Yeah, life threw some curve balls-

But who’s stronger?

You?
Or the curveballs?

DO WHAT IT TAKES.

Will Smith (in one of his amazing motivational YouTube videos) said "99% of people are not willing to do what it takes to make their dreams come true" and that's got to be one of the most motivational things I've ever heard...

What's one of your big dreams?

And what holds you back from achieving them?

I would love to see some real, raw, honest, heart felt answers...

I'm sure mine is pretty easy to guess! But struggling with anxiety and a panic disorder stops me from all of my dreams. I want greatness. I want to not feel like a disappointment. To not feel like I did absolutely nothing with my life. I want to make my mark on this world. Spread goodness. Help others heal from things I've been through. I want to love. I want to give. And I want to learn how to overcome what holds me back from living this kind of life. I want to make an impact on this world, but it's hard to do from your couch because you're too afraid to leave it.

What holds you back?

How do we get over that hump?

How do we heal?

How do we face our fears?

Things to Remember.

April 23rd, 2020- During quarantine, we are doing school work at home. Quinn did this homework assignment, lol and I shared it on Facebook!

I friggin love this child 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

What did you learn from reading “What is a Tornado?”

Quinn: I know everything about tornados my parents warned me.

April 22nd, 2020-

Quinn watched Shot of the Yeagers and they recreated their baby pics, so she HAD to do it... and she has me DYING tonight 🤣🤣🤣😂 Quinn 1 month old vs Quinn almost 7,

April 19, 2020-

Take a walk with the kids down the bike path- Tayler Bay is roller skating. Tayler Bay decides to pitch a fit because I won’t let her in the river . Tayler Bay lays down and starts kicking her legs. Tayler Bay kicks her roller skate off, it flies up in the air, and lands right in the river 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣and we just watch it sink and wave it goodbye. Lol. 😂😂😂 Ethan ended up fishing it out with a stick lol, but it was hilarious at first because her face was like 😮 

May 4th, 2020- Thoughts on Autism

Tayler Bay hasn’t slept good in a couple of nights- and last night was horrible. She woke up about 3am screaming bloody murder. A heart wrenching yell. I have no idea what was bothering her or what was going on, but I got her iPad and got her laid back down. I laid on the floor next to the couch and I could hear ‘Something in the Water’ by Carrie Underwood playing softly.. and Tayler Bay was singing along with it-

And let me tell you-

There’s something humbling and heart breaking to hear your non-verbal 9-year old sing, with tears pouring down her face, just sobbing

“Couldn't fight back the tears so I fell on my knees
Saying, "God, if you're there come and rescue me."
Felt love pouring down from above
Got washed in the water, washed in the blood”

It literally felt like someone punched me in the stomach and ripped my heart out of my chest.

My baby- the one tormented (and yes, I feel as though she’s tormented some days) by Autism- it felt like she was pleading with Jesus to come rescue her-

It broke me.

😔😔

And I found myself weeping and praying to God to find it in his soul to heal my baby. To help her. To rescue her sweet soul and stop the tormenting and pain she feels inside. I hate it. 😔😔😔😔 some days, she’s happy go-lucky and not weighed down by Autism and then other days, she can’t break free from it and it rules every part of her brain and life.

I truly believe she needs/wants a miracle in her life..

😔 and so do we.

Please stand in the gap with her today. It was an overwhelming night full of pain, sadness, and cries for help.